Thursday, May 27

holiday filled with moody

really have no ideas why keep moody recently. :(
still very enjoying in those few days or before the langkawi trips.
but after that, or after few days, or while that war began,my mood is totally be ruined.

hope to leave this boring place;
hope to date few sis go for releasing;
hope to travel,even it's one day trip;
hope to grab some movies,no matter it's nice or not;
hope to club,too

but this all hopes are bullshit out of my control.
no lessen, no car, please say NOT to planning!!
can't arrange all the stuffs and plan for some activities as mentioned above, i really failed.
don't have some peoples whom i can depend on
all i have to learn to be independent, instead
or can i book a car and paid for driver to serve me all those things, perhaps.
well, PLEASE it'll not be real, impossible!!

blaming that can't take all the decisions by myself
why shall i so busybody?
why shall i so coward and nerd?

i feel i don't have close true friends,sometimes.
idk why, i just can't find someone to chat with, or discuss with about my problems.
or sometimes, it's bad timing.
like now, some of them are facing final,
some of them are starting coll life.
and left me alone...

rumor said that semester result will be released by tomorrow.
argg, become ganjiong some more :-O
i admit i did not do all my best enough,
i guess it will not reach the level as i expected.
i was totally failed, again. :(

ya,i know even though it's late for me to say regret everything,
and we should look forward to aim for another best future but not to sad for yesterday,
somehow comforting word is easy to say but hard to do it.

well, gonna end this post as i'm sweating all the way i blog this.
the weather is damn hot recently.
and i shall not miss beauty sleeping time so far,
so good night world.
tomorrow will be a bad good good day for me :D 
cheers.

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